save changes?

mi-am dat seama cum isi bate viata joc de tine, cum te face sa delirezi, sa incerci lucruri noi chiar daca de multe ori speri ca de data asta va fi bine, ajungi din nou sa fi la pamant si sa ai nevoie de prieteni, nu numai ei de tine.
cand treci de la "in a relationship" to "single" iti spune ca relatia ta va fi "anulata" odata cu apasarea butonului "save changes". oricat de mult m-a durut sa salves schimbarile din viata mea, le-am salvat si mai mult.. a fost pentru ultima oara cand o sa fiu pe punctul de a-mi schimba viata printr-o optiune!
Doare cand vrei sa simti, si nu mai simti. feelingul pe care ti-l doresti dintr-o relatie, fericirea care ti-o da un apel de la persoana cealalta, un mesaj, un Buna Dimineata devreme.
In momentul in care toate dispar, le vrei inapoi dar nu sti cum sa le recuperezi.
Incerci sa ajungi sa fi macar pe linia de plutire, sa te ridici dar cazi si mai mult.
ii multumesti lui Dumnezeu ca te-ai prins din timp si nu te-ai lasa dezamagit, te-ai dezamagit singur.
nu cred ca mai exista vreo farama de iubire adevarata, sau daca exista..cu siguranta nu o sa o gasesc in trecut.
gandirea pozitiva persista.
multumesc M pentru tot!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x5jsOdczxWc

relationships, again.

this days got me thinking about relationships.
staying in bed after one month of good weather and hotness, being able to cover yourself with a blanket announces a bad weather, rain..and thunderstorms.
Yet again, trying to fall back in love with someone(and I mean falling back) its harder than it sounds, more exact, impossible after that period of 3 months when you try to forget about that person.
One big plate of food and two House episodes, you get in the perfect mood for love.
The love for yourself!
there are many kind of relationships: there are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you-you love, well, that's just fabulous.
(satc)

coulda,woulda,shoulda

so what started just like a friendship, it just turned around in other directions..
Involving all these people, gossip and cheat I realized that its all unnecessary and just relentless.
I thought that if I would just go to that point where friendship is enough, so there I am but its not that great because of all this facts that just try to set down the friend relationship to an other relationship.
And if that was not enough, its just like karma: what goes around, comes around..but hits you harder then expected.
The universe may not always play fair,
but at least it's got a hell of a sense of humor.
So much of what I have is wonderful so this is that and I am happy with it.
Being friends is just enough to make some people happy and some not.In this kind of situations you should just try to express your own feelings in a way that could never bother others, like a friend of mine said: You can do whatever you want, as long you don't hurt anyone.

Bilet de adio, adio blog!

Vreau sa ma regasesc pe mine.

ma opresc aici, restul e mult mai dureros.
de asemenea, ma opresc aici din blog.
ma opresc din viata.

Starbucks.

Today, I will share a big secret!
My fav. coffee from starbucks is Caffé Verona!

"If Cupid used coffee instead of arrows, this blend might well be his weapon of choice."

So, this coffee is the touch of love!
Goes with a piece of chocolate cake as sweet as love!
And it all ends with love after all!

you can buy me with a coffee, I'm so cheap.

Instead of wastead gifts around
Instead of losing all we have
Instead of dreaming of a man you'll never have
You'd better breathe with me and feel...

Instead of planning and debating
Instead of shaping my own dreams
Instead of dreaming of a son you'll never have
You'd better breathe with me and feel...

You can buy me with a coffee
I'm so cheap...

Instead of letting distance talk
Instead of losing all we have
Instead ofdreaming of a man I'll never be
You'd better breathe with me and feel...

Instead of juding day and night
Instead of wasted time on both sides
Instead of guessing what the hell went wrong with me
You'd better breathe with me and feel...

You can buy me wïth a coffee
I'm so cheap...




SIMPLE.

Starbucks.

How important is Starbucks for me?
I am not addicted.I don't need caffeine every day to stay awake till 10PM.
Starbucks is not just coffee, tea and sweets...its my family..
Its a part of me.
Its a way of life.LIVE.
Its my place to chill and meditate.
Its the only place where I would go anytime.
Thank you Ioana, Flavius, Ioana:], Gabi, Gabi P:], Angi, Flo.
It means a lot to me.
Thank you for being there every day.
Now, dears, this is Starbucks for me.
Its not just coffee.

doar atat.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8wxOVn99FTE <3

Morning bed.

Ador diminetile insorite..
Diminetile pure..alea in care te trezesti si e racoare...si soarele iti mangaie fata..
Dimineti in care te intorci pe o parte si persoana iubita este right next to you..
Ador diminetile tarzii de asemenea..diminetile de ora 11..
Diminetile cu miros de cafea starbucks..
Diminetile in care nu auzi masini din afara geamului...
Acele zile in care stii ca vei face tot ce vei vrea, fara reguli..obligatii....
Dimineata perfecta...

and you'l find love love love..

za Mara and I:>

we are the people.


:> ha?

:>

un fel de theme song al vietii mele.


i hope you like it.
ma defineste.

more than words?

si asta pentru ca ti-am spus ca intotdeauna te voi iubi, orice ar fi, orice as face...

Christmas is over.

uno and coffee! <3thanks for perfect days!

Acum a inceput scoala, dar este bine atata timp cat am rabdare sa fie totul ok!

national day of cadouri:)

cu niste dureri groaznice ma pun in pat, tot cu ele ma chinui sa inchid ochii noaptea, cu ele ma trezesc din cele 2 ore in care cred ca m-am odihnit.

cu cearcane pana in pamant, parul in toate directiile nord-sud fara nici un chef de nimic.

sa nu pomenesc de scoala, care nici nu imi trecea prin cap. m-am plimbat prin casa vreo ora, ca numai asa uitam de durere ca daca stateam jos imi aminteam iara.dimineti din astea nu doresc la nimeni.

starea asta de plictiseala a tot continuat pana am primit un telefon de la un om foarte binecuvantat, care m-a chemat la scoala si eu in sinea mea ma gandeam in mod normal:asta e nebun?

in fine, am intrebat care este minunatul motiv pentru care as putea veni la scoala(bineinteles ca ma gandeam ca nu ar exista asa ceva macar azi) si imi aminteste de cadouri, cadouri care ni le facem noi la scoala intre colegi in fiecare an, si deodata am tresarit, am uitat de dureri, de somn, de foame si m-am dus la scoala sa dau cadoul ca normal ca ma gandeam sa nu cumva sa dezamagesc persoana careia trebuie sa ii dau cadoul, si in sfarsit, am plecat cu un taxi la scoala, am dat cadoul care s-a potrivit perfect persoanei x.

Apoi mi-am amintit ca trebuia sa primesc si eu cadoul meu, de la cine, habarnaveam...

de cand am intrat in scoala, toata lumea imi zicea ce cadou tare am si ce nush ce si tr tr tr, problema era ca nimeni nu imi spunea de la cine este sau ce este?

Andreas, multumesc pentru cadou.My day was much better because of u:)

uite, un tumbler starbucks, christmas edition:) I love it!!!

thanks!u are a real blessing.

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Twilight->New Moon->Next?

ok deci..am fost la twilight, am fost la new moon, am citit toata nebunia, m-am entuziasmat, m-am enervat, am fost curios..mi-a trecut!

eh, nu pot sa zic ca am fost sau sunt fac twillight, nici nu sunt, nici nu am fost, doar ca am asteptat cu nerabdare un an de la twilight sa iasa new moon, sa vad continuarea.m-am bucurat ca a fost exact cum mi-am imaginat, doar ca mi-a displacut finalul acestui minunat film:)

am o parere foarte buna despre toata ideea sau fenomenul twilight, imi place ideea tinerilor indragostiti, impiedicati de fel de fel de obstacole foarte cat se poate de interesante.

Inaine sa muriti toti si sa va doriti o poveste ca a lor, ma gandesc la Edward, sau Robert Pattinson si viziunea lui sincera despre asa un film

American kid, adolescent mai bine zis..asa un film..no way!:) romance is sooooo not them.cat trebuie sa te prefaci sa faci asa un film....pentru el, ca poate pentru bella..nu stiu..Kristen Stwart Rox->smokin` hot in real life.

Daca vreau sa vad urmatorul film?

Categoric!..dupa cum s-a terminat new moon..(would u marry me?) c`moooonn guys. i did not wait for 1 freakin` year just for that!!!!

neeeeeeextttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!

the cullens?(to cool guys)yeah.that should be the right name for them <3alice<3!!

asteptam urmatorul......

naspa.

2 milion things i would like to share today.but no way i am going to share them today!:)

home alone for one month..bla bla1.bla bla2...bla bla3..!!!

lol..cate tampeni..prostii ..hate it!:|

after the whole bla bla bla..

i guess i should stop writing atunci cand sufar, si sa scriu mai mult knd sunt fericit.

las ca azi dupa ore dau o tura pe la starbucks..k asa e frumos de ziua asta faina.

ca oricum azi e ziua ei.la multi ani sincer:) iti urez SINCER tot ce e mai bun;) , tot ce vrei..si nu stiu...vezi u;)

:-<

romantic ca primul sarut...

O piesa a lui Frank Sinatra, love me tender, Its always you...or right close to you..old music, old movies..romantics, romantism...what about that?who could resist to that?
pam pam...la la laaa...slow rithm, drums...trompet, sax...
when things go wrong, the music makes it right.
and like always..starbucks has to be here..with the music it works a cup of hot chocolate in a cold cold cold winter...
pictures, friends, family, cakes, christmas tea, cinnamon, grandma...sounds funny..but normal for me:)



Christmas, I am waiting....can you come faster?



I won't dance, why should I?
I won't dance, how could I?
I won't dance, merci beaucoup
I know that music leads the way to romance,
So if I hold you in arms I won't dance

cold but good.

stau de vreo 3 zile la pat, racit, ma chinui cu cate 4-5 ceaiuri pe zii, freshuri de fructe, piersici si struguri ca doar au vitamine...pizza, mic dejun la pat, fara scoala, fara cursuri, fara griji. totul este bine...pana cand? nu stiu...
daca tot mi-am luat liber de la scoala zilele astea mi-am permis sa fac ceva cercetari despre cafea:P, in special starbuckssss.


Starbucks® Espresso Roast


După cum sugerează şi numele, Starbucks® Espresso Roast a fost creat special pentru băuturile pe bază de espresso. Are o aromă densă, cu gust dulce de caramel, cu aciditate redusă. Aroma de mirodenii a cafelei Espresso Roast se va infiltra în bucătăria şi simţurile dumneavoastră. un amestec intens şi echilibrat de cafele din America latină şi Indoneyia, Espresso Roast este prăjit puţin mai mult decât celelalte cafele Starbucks. Reţeta a fost elaborată la sfârşitul anilor '70 după o perioadă îndelungă de amestecuri, testări şi degustări – rezultatul vorbeşte de la sine.

rutina.

Suna alarma la 6 dimineata, aceeasi melodie[pink-sober]...best way to start a new day.

Obosit rupt.14 ore de miscare continua.apoi 2 ore de relaxare dupa fiecare zii..apoi o luam de la capat, si de la capat, si de la capat..si tot asa in fiecare zii.

Mai prinzi prieteni disperati si ei, incerci sa iei toata povara asupra ta, sa ajuti..sa slujesti pe alti cu tot ce ai.

Mai faci ce ai de facut...lucruri pe care le consideri normale, dar te-ai saturat de ele, sa le repeti in fiecare zii, sa incerci sa faci din ce in ce mai bine..pana te saturi si dai cu picioru` la tot ce ai facut.dar nu conteaza, pici, te ridici ..si o iei de la capat.

[low self esteem again.]

si o luam de la capat....

toamna asta ma supara.